If I were to walk out there to give my speech on that day, this pretty much would have been what I was going to say:
Selamat pagi/petang.
Saya tidak pernah sangka bahawa program HIMPUN ini akan memberi apa-apa kesan mahupun apa-apa manfaat kerana sememangnya saya terpaksa manghadirinya. Ada yang datang sedia dengan idea dan pengetahuan yang cukup 'impressive', namun saya datang tanpa menyediakan apa-apa kerana tidak tahu langsung objektif program ini pada awalnya. Tanggapan saya jelas tidak benar, bagi saya, saya membawa pulang bukan sahaja segunung pengetahuan dari pelbagai aspek, tetapi juga pengalaman berlambak-lambak yang tidak akan saya lupakan. Sekiranya Deepavali tidak berlangsung pada waktu ini dan ada penglibatan kaum India, saya pasti impaknya akan lebih memberangsangkan kerana kita akan dapat mengetahui idea dan perasaan mereka sebagai rakyat Malaysia.
Namun, hanya satu perkara sahaja yang tidak memuaskan hati. Saya dan beberapa orang rakan sejak awal lagi telah merancang untuk memakai baju tradisional bersama-sama. Oleh itu, kami memutuskan untuk memakai pakaian tradisional masing-masing semalam. Saya bangga mewakili kaum saya di Malaysia, saya gembira kami berpakaian tradisional yang berlainan yang mewakili kaum masing-masing di sebuah tanah yang sama, saya rasa cantik dalam cheongsam berwarna ungu saya itu. Apabila rakan-rakan memuji kecantikan baju tradisional saya, saya bangga. Namun, saya kecewa dan sakit hati yang teramat sangat apabila seorang 'faci' menegur bahawa cheongsam saya yang berparas lutut itu adalah terlalu pendek dan sememangnya tidak dibenarkan untuk dipakai di universitinya, dan diminta menukar tempat duduk saya supaya tidak begitu ketara dan mudah dilihat apabila naib canselor UUM hendak berucap. Saya berfikir sendiri pada masa itu, adakah keputusan saya untuk memakai pakaian tradisional saya adalah salah? Adakah saya tidak harus bangga tentang kaum saya di Malaysia? Adakah cheongsam saya itu MENCOLOK MATA? PARAS LUTUT. Saya masih tahu menghormati kaum dan agama lain, saya tidak pernah benci/tidak suka tinggal dengan kaum lain di Malaysia malah saya bangga. Tetapi bukan hanya saya yang patut menghormati kaum lain, anda juga harus menghormati pakaian tradisional kaum saya. Mengapa saya berasa cantik dalam cheongsam saya itu? Sejauh mana perasaan bangga saya di sebalik cheongsam itu anda tidak akan tahu. Mengapa saya berasa bangga? Kerana kawan-kawan saya terdiri daripada mereka yang berbilang kaum dan kami gembira berinteraksi antara satu sama lain, tidak pernah wujud persoalan kaum. Kami berkomunikasi secara manusia sesama manusia, bukan kaum sesama kaum.
Saya percaya, sekiranya HIMPUN yang seterusnya diadakan di tempat yang lebih baik keadaannya (the bathroom cannot be tolerated omg), saya akan menghadirinya secara sukarela. Dan kali ini, saya akan memakai pakaian tradisional saya dengan bangga tanpa segan silu dan kebimbangan akan ditegur. Lebih baik lagi, secara jujur, saya ingin memakai baju kurung.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Gossip Girl omg.
Omg I had to post this. I just finished watchin GG season 1 and i'm in love with chuck bass = ed westwick. Btw i got that shirt from perangin mall and am lovin it. ;-)
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Heal the world.
I think it's the beginning of the end of the world. Storms in Manila claimed hundreds of lives, earthquakes in Padang have taken away many lives, tsunami in American Samoa not to mention, I don't know what's more to come. Catastrophes happen just anytime, snatching thousands of innocent lives and the worst thing is, there's nothing anybody can do about it.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Boring updates.
Sowy. Didn't even upload any pictures from home and now since I'm back in Penang I can't upload any pictures here in uni unless I do it in Roti Bakar. I was too busy watching Moonlight Resonance back home that I neglected everything else. Including assignments. =p
I've uploaded Melbourne pictures in fb maybe you guys can go check them out there first if interested. :D I wanna do a long long post about my holiday in Melbourne. For memories. =)
Gosh. I missed 2 Spanish classes and today when I attended class I felt so stranger to Spanish as if I've never learnt any of it before. Not really la I'm just kidding. Only the food part. They learnt about FOOD on that week I was away, and when Mr. Omar revised and continued this topic I felt so lost I was quite upset. Just when I was thinking of taking Spanish as my minor cos' I thought I was doing quite ok and it's interesting after all, then today's class made me think twice about my minor. I haven't given up though, cos' it's my own fault also la actually, I didn't put in effort to go get notes from friends or study myself for what I had missed. I must do some revision so that I don't feel so blur in the next class wtf. Sigh.
Omg I can't believe I'm a uni student. Today was the first time I actually went to search for books in the library and did my first pinjaman! Lol. Don't laugh don't curse don't scold. Everyone has his/her first time ok. Mine's just a bit late. *shy* I met some friends in the library and I was too embarrassed to ask them how to pinjam buku. :( Damn malu I know. T_T. I wasn't sure whether it was as simple as bringing the books to the counter. I also didn't dare to ask the library staffs there. In the end I texted oldman to confirm. :( But from today onwards, I KNOW HOW TO SEARCH FOR BOOKS AND PINJAM D. In case any of you is not aware, our library is not like the ones in school where you just take any book you can easily find in the racks and bring to one very visible counter with a librarian behind it. Our library is a 3-storey building and there are books everywhere you have to use the computer to search for the codes to know where the books are placed, and it's so big compared to the ones I've visited before except of course the one next to Muzium Alam Shah, that I didn't realise that there is also a gigantic sign board at the counter saying 'Pinjaman' or something like that UNTIL TODAY. Hahahahahahahhahaha. Apex student kononnya.
Hmm. Eyes getting heavy. Adios.
I've uploaded Melbourne pictures in fb maybe you guys can go check them out there first if interested. :D I wanna do a long long post about my holiday in Melbourne. For memories. =)
Gosh. I missed 2 Spanish classes and today when I attended class I felt so stranger to Spanish as if I've never learnt any of it before. Not really la I'm just kidding. Only the food part. They learnt about FOOD on that week I was away, and when Mr. Omar revised and continued this topic I felt so lost I was quite upset. Just when I was thinking of taking Spanish as my minor cos' I thought I was doing quite ok and it's interesting after all, then today's class made me think twice about my minor. I haven't given up though, cos' it's my own fault also la actually, I didn't put in effort to go get notes from friends or study myself for what I had missed. I must do some revision so that I don't feel so blur in the next class wtf. Sigh.
Omg I can't believe I'm a uni student. Today was the first time I actually went to search for books in the library and did my first pinjaman! Lol. Don't laugh don't curse don't scold. Everyone has his/her first time ok. Mine's just a bit late. *shy* I met some friends in the library and I was too embarrassed to ask them how to pinjam buku. :( Damn malu I know. T_T. I wasn't sure whether it was as simple as bringing the books to the counter. I also didn't dare to ask the library staffs there. In the end I texted oldman to confirm. :( But from today onwards, I KNOW HOW TO SEARCH FOR BOOKS AND PINJAM D. In case any of you is not aware, our library is not like the ones in school where you just take any book you can easily find in the racks and bring to one very visible counter with a librarian behind it. Our library is a 3-storey building and there are books everywhere you have to use the computer to search for the codes to know where the books are placed, and it's so big compared to the ones I've visited before except of course the one next to Muzium Alam Shah, that I didn't realise that there is also a gigantic sign board at the counter saying 'Pinjaman' or something like that UNTIL TODAY. Hahahahahahahhahaha. Apex student kononnya.
Hmm. Eyes getting heavy. Adios.
Thursday, September 17, 2009
PMS-ing
Hola. Heee been away for holidays in Melbourne! Pwomise a long post bout it! Few words to describe this trip: adventurous and exciting! and cold! You wont believe what happened. Somethin so unbelievable! Will write bout it in the next post.
So. I just got back from Melbourne last Saturday. Left for Penang Monday night. Then tomorrow, which is Fwiday, I'm goin home again! :D A quote from someone: "Why you always come back one?" =p nenenene cannot mer? Hehe. I cuti sendiri for one whole week, then come back uni for 4 days then off I go back to Klang again! Yays! I love home!
Confessions: I cannot tahan already. I really cannot stand people who are anti-social. Gosh. I sound pathetic I know, anti-social is not a crime. But why is it so difficult for some people to look up and smile to their neighbours?????? Is it very difficult??? Will it cost them anythin? Like anythin???? We'll be staying in the same block, same floor, for the whole freakin' year or more, and we'll be meeting 5000 if not 6000 times because we simply share the same common bathroom and pantry and living room for goodness' sake, just a simple smile come on. I'm not mad at them for NOT smiling AT ME, but it's like they dont even look up when they walk along the corridor when they notice there are people around. They dont even wanna have the least bit of chance to meet you face to face, they live in their own world they dont realise that there are people around them. I dont know why I get so pissed. Seriously.
But again, I cant be mad at them. Maybe they're just brought up like that. Or maybe they have their own problems I dont even bother. Geez so boring talking bout these people. Oh ya, I dont know these people. They are just this few unknown-origins and unfriendly creatures, I mean neighbours of mine.
Guess I haven't entirely accepted the fact that I'll be learning the subjects in my course in BM for 3 freakin' years. Whenever people ask me how is USM, I never failed to answer that I'm very disappointed about my course being taught in BM. However I will not skip my core subjects on purpose. Most of the time I go to class is because I have to and because I have very fun coursemates, but never because I wanna learn new things. The only classes I really enjoy attending and really learn things are Spanish and Theatre. Theatre, only if it's Dr. Mumtaz's classes because she teaches in English most of the time, though there was one time, she casually asked the class whether they preferred her to teach in English or BM and before I could answer anythin, other people were already shouting "BM!!" So embarrassing for Uni students to react that way. Gosh. Dr. Mumtaz is more comfortable teaching in English that's why.
Spanish is the class I love to attend most though I often complain because it's night classes. I always look forward to what I'll be learning next, though the grammar part is super complicated and...scary.
It's not that I suck at BM or anythin. I am actually not bad at BM. I never took tuition and I still got A2 or A- for BM. I dont mind having BM as a subject even up to Uni level but I am just so pissed off with whoever came out with the stupidest idea of all times to have any Uni subjects, any subject at all, be taught in B freakin' M, especially COMMUNICATION in my case! Even Psychology! Fuck! The supposing very interesting subject has become the subject people choose to skip classes now!
I often have this same day dream bout what I can do to be able to change the fact, to learn mass comm, the course that I've always wanted, in ENGLISH. Not that I excel in English or whatsoever because that's not even the point, but what we study now is what we are goin to apply in our career in future. Don't these people get it? English is future. Fools. Try showing your freakin' certs and degree with excellent results in an interview but can't even introduce yourself in proper English.
I'm not criticising people with poor English, I'm talking bout those who DONT wanna practise the international language at all. Those who only wanna STICK to the national language that's all.
So. I just got back from Melbourne last Saturday. Left for Penang Monday night. Then tomorrow, which is Fwiday, I'm goin home again! :D A quote from someone: "Why you always come back one?" =p nenenene cannot mer? Hehe. I cuti sendiri for one whole week, then come back uni for 4 days then off I go back to Klang again! Yays! I love home!
Confessions: I cannot tahan already. I really cannot stand people who are anti-social. Gosh. I sound pathetic I know, anti-social is not a crime. But why is it so difficult for some people to look up and smile to their neighbours?????? Is it very difficult??? Will it cost them anythin? Like anythin???? We'll be staying in the same block, same floor, for the whole freakin' year or more, and we'll be meeting 5000 if not 6000 times because we simply share the same common bathroom and pantry and living room for goodness' sake, just a simple smile come on. I'm not mad at them for NOT smiling AT ME, but it's like they dont even look up when they walk along the corridor when they notice there are people around. They dont even wanna have the least bit of chance to meet you face to face, they live in their own world they dont realise that there are people around them. I dont know why I get so pissed. Seriously.
But again, I cant be mad at them. Maybe they're just brought up like that. Or maybe they have their own problems I dont even bother. Geez so boring talking bout these people. Oh ya, I dont know these people. They are just this few unknown-origins and unfriendly creatures, I mean neighbours of mine.
Guess I haven't entirely accepted the fact that I'll be learning the subjects in my course in BM for 3 freakin' years. Whenever people ask me how is USM, I never failed to answer that I'm very disappointed about my course being taught in BM. However I will not skip my core subjects on purpose. Most of the time I go to class is because I have to and because I have very fun coursemates, but never because I wanna learn new things. The only classes I really enjoy attending and really learn things are Spanish and Theatre. Theatre, only if it's Dr. Mumtaz's classes because she teaches in English most of the time, though there was one time, she casually asked the class whether they preferred her to teach in English or BM and before I could answer anythin, other people were already shouting "BM!!" So embarrassing for Uni students to react that way. Gosh. Dr. Mumtaz is more comfortable teaching in English that's why.
Spanish is the class I love to attend most though I often complain because it's night classes. I always look forward to what I'll be learning next, though the grammar part is super complicated and...scary.
It's not that I suck at BM or anythin. I am actually not bad at BM. I never took tuition and I still got A2 or A- for BM. I dont mind having BM as a subject even up to Uni level but I am just so pissed off with whoever came out with the stupidest idea of all times to have any Uni subjects, any subject at all, be taught in B freakin' M, especially COMMUNICATION in my case! Even Psychology! Fuck! The supposing very interesting subject has become the subject people choose to skip classes now!
I often have this same day dream bout what I can do to be able to change the fact, to learn mass comm, the course that I've always wanted, in ENGLISH. Not that I excel in English or whatsoever because that's not even the point, but what we study now is what we are goin to apply in our career in future. Don't these people get it? English is future. Fools. Try showing your freakin' certs and degree with excellent results in an interview but can't even introduce yourself in proper English.
I'm not criticising people with poor English, I'm talking bout those who DONT wanna practise the international language at all. Those who only wanna STICK to the national language that's all.
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Missed out somethin in 'I'm very silly' hehe
I can't believe I missed out DIM SUM in the good-food list back in Klang! Dim Sum at Grand Imperial, Centro, was sort of the farewell for me (goin back to Penang T__T). Dim Sum was awesome and fantastic after a long crave.
So here, I would like to say muchas gracias to mummy, kaima, steve gor gor, yi bak, pat leong, mun yee jie, gu jie, wai gor gor, krystal jie, ah kam for giving me such a wonderful mid-sem break!
Wtf I also forgotten to mention prawn mee in Ah Kam's place!! See, a week of serious delicious food!
iHasta la proxima!
So here, I would like to say muchas gracias to mummy, kaima, steve gor gor, yi bak, pat leong, mun yee jie, gu jie, wai gor gor, krystal jie, ah kam for giving me such a wonderful mid-sem break!
Wtf I also forgotten to mention prawn mee in Ah Kam's place!! See, a week of serious delicious food!
iHasta la proxima!
Friday, August 28, 2009
Too moody to name this post.
Wtf! Was locked out of my room! >_< Lesson : Never leave the room without keys! Had to blindly go look for my roommate in one of her friends' room luckily it didnt need much effort. And she didnt even bring her phone. So even if I had her contact in hands I still wouldn't be able to get her. Sigh. Nvm. Now I'm back in my room.
Anyway, didnt intend to blog bout being locked out of the room because I didnt even know I'd be locked out wtf. Just wanted to complain about the weather here in Penang! Grrrr. Damn frustrated with the non-stop rain these few days, no, the whole week! Believe it or not, it never gets tired! Rain rain rain and rain the whole freakin' day!
See. Hot also complain. Rain also complain. Sorry but I can't help it! When it's hot, it's super hot. When it rains, it never stops!
Today, again, he mentioned that he's gonna get me a car soon. But why all the fights and arguments and twist of words and lies??! Pointless! I just hope they never see each other again if everytime they meet the only conclusion is WAR. Just mind your own businesses, two of you. And the earth will be a peaceful one.
Not really in a good mood now. But I guess I'm pretty good in hiding my feelings. I'm sad and down inside me but when I see my people around me I can still smile and laugh because I know whenever I'm with them I'm able to leave the unhappiness behind for a moment or two. Muchas gracias.
I would also like to say muchas gracias to Ms. Ummu for teaching me Spanish for the past 2 months. Though learning with her is a bit stress, I enjoyed her classes nevertheless. Yesterday was her last class with us, next week Mr. Omar will take over by giving us a test as a pengenalan or pendahuluan or pembuka or whatever. But I'm sure Mr. O's class will be muy enjoyable because he's very funny! Lol. We've met him a few times and he never failed to make us laugh everytime.
When I put Lol, I didn't really lol, not even a smile. That lol was more like an expression or emotion to support my statement. I dont even know why I'm saying this my fingers just couldn't stop typing. Sigh. But whatever la, tomorrow will be a new day. (hopefully)
Adios.
Anyway, didnt intend to blog bout being locked out of the room because I didnt even know I'd be locked out wtf. Just wanted to complain about the weather here in Penang! Grrrr. Damn frustrated with the non-stop rain these few days, no, the whole week! Believe it or not, it never gets tired! Rain rain rain and rain the whole freakin' day!
See. Hot also complain. Rain also complain. Sorry but I can't help it! When it's hot, it's super hot. When it rains, it never stops!
Today, again, he mentioned that he's gonna get me a car soon. But why all the fights and arguments and twist of words and lies??! Pointless! I just hope they never see each other again if everytime they meet the only conclusion is WAR. Just mind your own businesses, two of you. And the earth will be a peaceful one.
Not really in a good mood now. But I guess I'm pretty good in hiding my feelings. I'm sad and down inside me but when I see my people around me I can still smile and laugh because I know whenever I'm with them I'm able to leave the unhappiness behind for a moment or two. Muchas gracias.
I would also like to say muchas gracias to Ms. Ummu for teaching me Spanish for the past 2 months. Though learning with her is a bit stress, I enjoyed her classes nevertheless. Yesterday was her last class with us, next week Mr. Omar will take over by giving us a test as a pengenalan or pendahuluan or pembuka or whatever. But I'm sure Mr. O's class will be muy enjoyable because he's very funny! Lol. We've met him a few times and he never failed to make us laugh everytime.
When I put Lol, I didn't really lol, not even a smile. That lol was more like an expression or emotion to support my statement. I dont even know why I'm saying this my fingers just couldn't stop typing. Sigh. But whatever la, tomorrow will be a new day. (hopefully)
Adios.
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